Amazing, isn't it as to how fast life moves on. And i see it all clearly as yesterday, that i was in school, doing all the things that the youngsters used to do playing, studying and much more, no details need to be given. But then i see myself today, and i tend to forget things, that i have thought about an hour earlier.
When i look back at what i have done and what i have achieved, i am still in the same place. I am not talking about in terms of monetary gains. That is all independent of hard each person had worked, and that is his personal thing. But i tend to see how i have developed as a person, and have i made a difference in another human being.
I start to doubt myself, that i am where i am. Ofcourse i try to do my bit, but i don't think that what i have done is any comparison to what my colleagues have achieved. But then, why am i comparing myself to anybody. What i do, is my own business. But the affect that it has to be for the community at large. My colleagues also have done some things, and they also have an affect on the community at large.
When i was young, i did not have the pressures of supporting a family, ofcourse it was another matter that all my salary was given to my parents, who utilized how they thought fit. I think this is how we all grew up, with these as characters imbibed in us. For us the parents used to be everything, and i remember that i was constantly smacked by my father, but then i could also see the love, so i didn't have any ill feelings towards him.
The family as a whole was a close knit family, but i think slowly and steadily its starting to change. Time passed so quickly, that i got married, have kids, they are getting their education and they going to get their jobs and get married. Imagine, how time passes through, and we dont tend to even concentrate on the fact, as to how we have lived through it. The average age of an human being is maybe 65. So maybe i have another 15 years or so, Did i change something, Did i achieve something, Was i a person true to my family and my neighbors......I dont know, I wish i knew. because this really does matter, when you tend to get older and older.
I had some friends in school, but i have lost touch with them. The friends, if i can call them, i dont know, if i have been able to make them my friends. Because my actions will make them decide if i truly am their friend. Not easy. But i can only hope that i am true to myself and also to them. I am true to my family, and try to provide for them. I am a selfish man, but i am selfish for my family and my friends.
See, after reading the above, you can say that .....Suddenly, i was OLD
When i look back at what i have done and what i have achieved, i am still in the same place. I am not talking about in terms of monetary gains. That is all independent of hard each person had worked, and that is his personal thing. But i tend to see how i have developed as a person, and have i made a difference in another human being.
I start to doubt myself, that i am where i am. Ofcourse i try to do my bit, but i don't think that what i have done is any comparison to what my colleagues have achieved. But then, why am i comparing myself to anybody. What i do, is my own business. But the affect that it has to be for the community at large. My colleagues also have done some things, and they also have an affect on the community at large.
When i was young, i did not have the pressures of supporting a family, ofcourse it was another matter that all my salary was given to my parents, who utilized how they thought fit. I think this is how we all grew up, with these as characters imbibed in us. For us the parents used to be everything, and i remember that i was constantly smacked by my father, but then i could also see the love, so i didn't have any ill feelings towards him.
The family as a whole was a close knit family, but i think slowly and steadily its starting to change. Time passed so quickly, that i got married, have kids, they are getting their education and they going to get their jobs and get married. Imagine, how time passes through, and we dont tend to even concentrate on the fact, as to how we have lived through it. The average age of an human being is maybe 65. So maybe i have another 15 years or so, Did i change something, Did i achieve something, Was i a person true to my family and my neighbors......I dont know, I wish i knew. because this really does matter, when you tend to get older and older.
I had some friends in school, but i have lost touch with them. The friends, if i can call them, i dont know, if i have been able to make them my friends. Because my actions will make them decide if i truly am their friend. Not easy. But i can only hope that i am true to myself and also to them. I am true to my family, and try to provide for them. I am a selfish man, but i am selfish for my family and my friends.
See, after reading the above, you can say that .....Suddenly, i was OLD
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